Who in the what now?

Had a really freaky dream last night. I dreamed I had brain cancer. I just knew that I did, and I felt really sorry for myself, because the tumor was making my brain do funny [funny queer, not funny ha-ha] things.

Like, I heard voices. Not burn-the-house-down voices, but actual snippets of long-ago conversations. Sounds outside my head, but near my ear. Since there were no people around me in my dream, I knew that the sounds were being made because of misfiring neurons. Partial memories being re-played in real time, with acoustics.

Of course, the tumor also caused me to make some poor lifestyle choices, such as shooting heroin.

It was a total feeling of helplessness, like this malignant, mean-spirited tumor was playing games with my head.

Now what, I ask, the fuck does this one mean?

November 26, 2003 | Filed Under neuroses